I have hit rock bottom. My weight is out of contol. I cant believe i let myself get this big. 195 Lbs!!!! That is 5 pounds away from 200!!! Just writing that sounds awful. But the crazy thing is that i didnt realize my weight had gotten this far unil i came home from the mission and everyone started calling my fat and chubby. My own family and supposed friends. I feel beyond low right now. But the only one who can and will if i let him is jesus christ. He is my rock and sheild and and he is strong in my weakness and depression. I have already devised a plan to loose this weight relitively quickly. I start tomorrow morning. 65Lbs to shed! Lord help me. Im so happy its fall my favorite season. By the end of the missoui mission i should be well on my way.
